Never mind what is it?, question is Why? Sometimes we can stuck in the present stituation because we are have a lots of reason / excuses or we are just couldn’t realize what is it happening. This is can be “normal”. When you are had enough and you want to change and you are decide you doing something on different way everything helping you.
Then ask yourself: – What do you not want? – Why? – What do you want? – Why?
After you doing your “homework” you can know what is it next?, when? and how? you can reach you any dream, if you are alwauys remember for you why.